Heartache

One of the worst feelings in the world.
The feeling of my chest sinking in like a black hole is in my sternum.
My heart sinks towards that black hole.
My entire body feels like it's being eaten by it.
This heartache. This intensity. This pain.
I don't want it.

It gets better, doesn't it?
God I hope so.

Enduring

I feel like Iay as well call it suffering.
But for you.. It's worth it.
You're still worth everything to me.
Everyday I think about you. Almost like you think about him. I just don't think I could write to you nonstop without hearing any kind of response. Sometimes I do that with text messages, bit that eventually just hurts. Cause it's a fucking text.
I'm sorry. I feel like I just don't have as many things to talk about. I wish I did.
Buh. I'm sorry. I feel like I can't say that enough. And part of me feels like you don't want to hear it at all.
I'm so sad.

i don't understand myself.

anytime i see anything related to you online
anytime i get a text from you
anytime you i/m me
anytime i see a new picture of you
anytime you call

i get a horrible feeling in my gut.
my heart starts racing.
i feel it beating against my chest.

i think it's a butterfly feeling.
i don't know if it's butterflies.
i don't know if it's sadness.
i don't know if it's stress.
i don't know if it's me wanting to die.
i don't know if it's me wanting to leave and disappear.
i don't know.
i need to know.
i need to figure myself out.

imagination.

i can't stop thinking about you being more comfortable in his arms or with your hand in his.
i can't stop thinking about you letting him hold you when you sleep, even if it's uncomfortable and hard to sleep.
i can't stop thinking about you liking him more than you like me.
i can't stop thinking about him being your favorite.
i can't stop thinking about you not loving me, or saying you don't love me, and loving him.
i can't stop thinking about you two moving in together and being happy and forgetting the happy thoughts that you and i had.
i can't stop thinking.
my imagination kills me.
it always has.
fuck.

Vous êtes mon morceau de ciel

Je souffrirai pour si longtemps

Ce que vous fera fait, ne pas longtemps.

Assez le faire jusqu'à vous.

Je prie à Dieu que vous faites.

Je ferai quoi que vous voulez que j'aie fait.

Bien alors je vous accorderai un hasard.

Et si ce n'est pas assez.

Si ce n'est pas assez, Si ce n'est pas assez

Si ce n'est pas assez.

Pas assez.

Essayer encore.

Essayer encore.

Et encore.

Et encore.

Maintes et maintes fois encore.

Je fais.

7?

SPOILER: English blog.

←We're both in the shadows, roaming the dark together.

←But our light is still shining through.

←I'll find you.

←We'll find eachother.

← and be...

←... happy.

6?

←J'atteins vers le ciel.
←J'ai dit mes adieux.
←Mon coeur est toujours avec vous maintenant.
←Je vous manque.
←Déjà.